Some reflections

Sensei asked those of us who passed our tests a few weeks ago to offer some reflections afterwards. The first thing, to be honest, is the sense of being... well, 'nervous' isn't the right word. Apprehensive? Having all my dojo friends sitting there in a line, watching the proceedings in silence. Sensei calling out these terms and then just reacting instinctively. The second thing is how supportive everyone had been, especially in the weeks leading up to the test. Veterans would practice moves with us rookies before, during, and after class. Another thing I realized is that I think this will make me a better teacher in the classroom. I can empathize better now with my students as they prepare for exams. I think too many adults get complacent; they don't set small goals and they forget what it's like to have the good nervousness of pulling lots of ideas together. But the final sense is that this is just a beginning. I'm still at the point where my moves are too mechanical and even getting my hakama on is a trial, but I don't sweat it. It's all a process. I thank everyone who helped.
Tom