As a doctoral student, I’ve certainly seen my share of tests. They come in every form: multiple choice, practical, essay, oral and moral. As a scientist, I’ve also administered my share of tests; we disguise them by using the term “experiments”. From this perspective, one realizes that the information gained from a test can only be as good as the test itself; a well-designed test should provide a true to life result, whereas a poorly designed one may even suggest a result contrary to reality! I believe most exams exist somewhere in between, in varying shades of grey. What is the real value, then, that is obtained with such variability in testing?
A favorite bumper sticker I’ve seen says: “As long as there are tests in schools, there will be prayer!” The implication here is that the learning process does not provide an expectation of absolute perfection when testing; rather, the test provides a new environment for self-evaluation of skills. A certain amount of grace is needed in addition to skill or knowledge for the very best score! The added pressure of testing should not be regarded as an obstacle to success, but instead a mirror from which one can discover the future’s path. The shihonage that felt so comfortable every other time could only accidentally morph into a sankyo under the influence of examination pressure. Clearly there is a relationship here to be explored! Importantly, it is less likely that this connection would have so obviously revealed itself without the added pressure of the attentive gaze of Sensei and the audience. Sometimes the best understanding comes after a mistake on a test.
Of course, the martial application of Aikido requires the correct execution of technique without negative influence from mind in order to be successful. Randori cannot have an Aiki outcome if the large gentlemen feigning malicious intent paralyze the Aikidoka with fear. The process of life-long study becomes clear here; I suspect that approximately one-half of samurai to ever enter battle learned of faults in either their technique or minds in the final moments of their life! Thankfully, the study of Aikido provides a peaceful means to develop harmony of mind and body without the corresponding decrease in life expectancy!
Examinations are less a chance to prove what you know than a chance for the individual to discover how well he or she actually knows it. Capitalization of this opportunity for self-reflection can be achieved not through pride regarding the correct answers, but through continued exploration of the mistakes. It is through the continued recognition and evaluation of our limitations can we consistently thrive. Just some thoughts; thanks for reading!
Rich
To the Chikyokan Aikidojo community:
ReplyDeleteHello, this is former student Mike Brown. I vanished some time ago without much warning or explanation, and I would like to take this opportunity to give a long overdue “thank you” to everyone. The trust, gratitude, friendships and hardships we share practicing such a personal and intimate art is truly amazing. I am deeply thankful that I trained with all of you, and even more importantly, that I had the chance to know so many wonderful people.
Although I may not see you again, please know that I wish you well. It was never my intention to become a stranger, so feel free to e-mail me (mbrown15@emich.edu) if you like.
Best wishes to all!
Michael Brown Jr
P.S. Sorry if I posted this in a bad spot. Also, if you thought I grew up and got all boring and serious or something… BOOOSH! Twice!