
Why do I have such a hard time not resisting? I think I’m moving correctly and going with the technique, but it still hurts. When someone tells you, “I don’t love you anymore,” what is the proper response? Is more training the answer? I know that I might not appear to be the most serious or dedicated student in the dojo, but I remember everything sensei has ever said about how to deal with difficulty, and while I might be gaining ground when it comes to handling a yokomenuchi, or a tsuki, much work is needed when it comes to emotional difficulty. I know how I should react, but I can’t make it happen. I get atemi to the face every time. I need to find out what it takes to be able to accept that it is a cold world we live in. I need to understand why doing the right thing doesn’t always have a payoff. I need to learn how to walk upright.
I have had a few of you approach me with words of support lately, and I want you to know that I appreciate it immensely. Lately, the only times I have been able to let go of my mess have been when I’m on the mat, and I feel very fortunate to be a part of this community. Thanks.
2 comments:
Chris.
Funny you should bring this up. The first talk of the sesshin (Zen training) was about standing on ones two feet, and what does that mean? To me, it means being able to let go of the things that cause us to stumble, un-needed burdens causing us to waiver, self-applied weights that have caused me to fall, to fail. You asked me once why I have a hard time rolling. I think it is because I have always feared falling, failing. If I just stay upright, sturdy on my feet, then I'm OK, but sometimes I can't stay upright,things are just more than I can handle, and then what?? I am trying to learn that falling and being able to let go is the thing. So the question to myself is "How does one fall, how does one fail without resisting, without hurting, yet, there is failure, there is hurt?
Chuck
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